everyone is posting graduation pictures on facebook...old friends from sec sch who went to poly and ppl from my dmd course in nyp...all of them are posting happy pictures with their own group on facebook, and i can literally see my fb home page flooding with happy people, happy that their tertiary life is over, and photos that represent their final hours tgt as poly mates...me, on the other hand, have another 2 more years of battle before i can post mine up...
i know its been a long time and ive come so far since ive started moving on, but it seems like things just move along at my pace to catch up with me...but this shows that there is still pain since the time i left poly....its already quite painful to know that im lagging behind other ppl...
so many things have changed over the past few years but i cant reli feel the impact of most of the changes tat happened so far, with only a few major changes here and there tat quite affected me in some way...but the many things tat are about to change tat i can forsee are reli scary, the changes tat are about to happen seems like its coming altogether at one go, a speed i can say that is equivalent to the speed of a tsunami...and the rate that things are starting to change is already scary enough...good friends and buddies are either gg into ns one by one, working or gg overseas...its like a mass exodus of close ppl leaving my life all at one go and most of the fun is beginning to end...and already tmr one of my reli gd buddies is already enlisting...and its reli going to be super hard to meet up wif ppl esp when sch starts and i'll be packed with assignments no longer of the year 1 kind and my social life will alr have a mass decrease...and it feels like im going to be suddenly drifting apart from so many ppl in my life all at one shot...
and this is only one of the mass changes that's gonna happen...(although it plays a huge major part)...but there are a few other changes that i have to be prepared to ''eat''...
and im feeling kind of worried that a similar saga as the one in poly might happen again although for now i cant see any happening...but it was the same kind in poly...yr 1 was fine and i never thought that things would change in the 2nd yr and i never expected to see myself end up in where i am now...though God led me in to this path, it seems hard for me to trust God for what is about to come from year 2 onwards...from the looks of what im going to study in yr 2 and 3, it seems like its stuffs that im interested in and i like to do...but ill never know what can happen...i dont reli dare to feel at ease that things are going to be ok this time round...i know that God is in control of everything but it seems so hard for me now to feel at ease....
now for chim stuffs...(if u can get it, means u can get it, and if u cant get it, means u cant get it)...and then i was reminded of the amaths topic of differentiation
differentiation and integration are 2 of my fav amaths topics...i rmb how easy for me to open up my tys and start doing the questions but quite hard for me to stop...its a big bonus if one likes these 2 topics cos these 2 topics are major topics in the amaths syllabus...yesterday, today and probably tomorrow (provided they dont bring it down to emaths)...well...i rmb mr tan soon yong telling our class since the end of sec 3 tat these 2 topics are topics which, "if u can get it, that means u can get it, and if u cant means u cant"...and u cant afford to give up on these 2 topics cos its and subtopics of differentiation include things like finding gradient of curve at a particular point on the graph, approximate changes and rates of change...
well, life is never a linear graph, where the gradients are forever constant, but rather a super complex curve where the gradient never stops changing...in maths in the topic under graphs, we are taught tat y = mx + c (basic linear graph) and equations of graphs of other powers where, let the power be n, is y = ax^n + bx^(n-1) + cx^(n-2) + ...... + c....but no matter how far our graphs may go, as long as we have a c (y intercept), we at least have something to hold on to and something to turn to...and this can only happen when we, the x, choose to stay as the base and not the power...as when we decide to let the power be the variable, we would never intercept the y-axis
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