AAR- After Action Reflections

ppl ive more or less cooled and chilled...though it is still kind of painful...i guess, after cooling down for quite some time alr and did some reflection, i realised i learnt quite a lesson from today...i must admit, it was partly my fault for overlooking it too much...and well, after staying still for quite some time, God spoke to me...and i began to see this incident in a different light...and no matter wat...i still ought to thank God for this painful lesson...to my non-Christian readers here, u might not understand what im saying and u might think im crazy...thanking God for this...and u may not understand what im about to say...so maybe u might not wanna continue, but if u do, its at yr own risk... =)

hmmm...first im looking at wat happened tdy....

tis morning i woke up and switched on the computer to check something before heading to sch...and when i switched on the com, i realised tat it seemed to behave rather weirdly, didnt seem like a big issue, but shan't go in depth to wat happened to the com...and then i thought 'nvm la'...so i went to sch in a rather slpy mood...and then after sch i came home and realised tat the problem still lingered...doesnt seem quite big but i alr had this prompting in me to quickly back up my data into my thumbdrive...but i kinda ignored tat prompting in me...and then there was tat prompting again...and i thought to myself 'i will do it later la'...and then a few minutes later, the com really died on me (which i never expected it would happen...but it did)...i rmb i just sent it for repair about a month ago right before i started sch...so i didnt expect it to die on me so quickly like tat...and of course a normal human being like me would flame up like nobody's business when this kind of thing happens...who wont?...imagine the fruits of yr labour going up in flames just after u are done wif all the hours of painstakingly sowing it..

well, ive been through something much bigger than this...somehow i'm still surprised at myself on how i reacted to tdy's incident...

looking back at this, i realize tat ive got no one else to blame but myself and my stubborness...well...i guess we always constantly need to be broken of our pride and stubborness again and again huh...that's when God constantly gives us tat 'knock on our heads' when its time...another lesson that i could learn from tdy would be that no matter how much i do my own plannings, God is still in control of everything, and im still powerless...

and of course i oso needa thank God for my mum...well, i was pissed enough til i felt like yelling at her to leave me alone...but thank God that i resisted myself from doing that (it seems like tat mr. niceguy in me is just as stubborn as me and doesnt wanna leave me)...and i reli ought to thank my mum for being so persistent in trying her best to be there for me when i was at my lowest mood tdy....

well, im just hoping and praying that the documents can still be recovered when i send it for servicing once again tmr...even though the chances are pretty low...prolly only a 5% and below chance...but im still clinging on to that small hope...but its ok if its gone...i'll just have to move on from there....=)

there's more i wanna reflect on but i think ill just end here...might continue or i might not...but i still thank God for revising this lesson wif me tdy...thanks Papa...=)

and yep...this remains as my theme song for this yr...=)