People come, people go

i think these days ive been getting rather selfish...to add on i think im becoming quite stuck-up and cocky towards some ppl around me...i dunno why but i think i am...i can be nice and friendly...but i think these days im getting quite stuck-up...trying to control but sometimes i cant help it and those insensitive words and remarks jus come out from my mouth...even though i might say it jokingly but i think i tend to go overboard wif my comments til it makes me seem rather stuck-up and cocky...

im altogether not the same me anymore...and probably never will be...change is the only constant in this world aye? but well im still trying to be a better person...and reflecting on this, i somehow got reminded of yest's show in film appreciation class called stand by me...something i forgot to add was that another reason why i felt like crying was cos the movie was illustrating how those 4 twelve-year old boys were slowly losing their innocence and growing up along their journey together, and to me that was pretty touching...and one quote i rmb the author was saying at the last part of the movie when 2 of the boys were gonna disappear from the other 2 bestie's lives forever...something like "friends come and go like how people come and go in a restaurant" and when it finally faded to the end where they showed the author in his adulthood reflecting on it on the computer (something like blogging but i dont think it is cos internet wasn't that advanced in 1986)...anyway my point is how it reminded me of my innocent days back when i was 12 myself and how i slowly entered into my teenage years...and how many people stayed in my life all the way up to now...including people from church

its coming to the end of my teenage years in about 10 months time i guess...not a long way more and im entering into adulthood...and im starting to imagine my life 10 yrs from now...by then i would most likely alr get married and have my own kids...im starting to wonder who would still exist in my world and who would vanish by then...kinda interesting but scary thinking about it...about how change would determine who goes and who stays...

was randomly peeking at my abandoned-old-friendster account and was looking at those gd days in the past wif my old clique...fun times we had esp those after-o-level days and our early days in poly when we still contacted each other...and how one by one the people vanished from my life like it was some magic trick...leaving behind less than half of the people still surviving up til now...i so feel like crying as im typing this...i noe im pretty emotional...

the whole bunch of us when we first started out...

chalet in june 2007...where we had free tickets to escape theme park..

those good old days we had back here...

and yea...another quote that struck me in the show was how the author said something like its hard to get friends as memorable as those whom he had when he was 12...which i feel was kinda true...but for me was sec sch frens instead of 12 yrs old...(apart from great churchies)...havent found frens who are as close to me as these 2 grps of ppl...

i like touching shows like this...makes me aware of my feelings...i think touching shows are gd if u wanna improve yr EQ...anyways stand by me is a great show altogether...u readers should watch it if u have the opportunity...=)

ok...to sidetrack a little before i end...my aunt just recently got a new maid about a month ago after the previous maid left my aunt's (and cousin's) house and just last wk tat stupid maid went to bring some man into the house! like wth and omg rite?! so in the end my aunt went to terminate the maid and sent her back to the agency and now still hunting for a new one...hmmm thinking about it...having maids can be pretty scary...no idea wat they might do...haha...i used to have maids at my previous home in killiney and mi mum was saying tat she didnt wanna have anymore maids and would prolly hire a part-time one instead to just come and clean the place once a wk since everyone is busy...and its been more than 2 yrs now since ive moved which means tat i havent had any maids for 2 yrs alr and im pretty much used to not having a maid and i think i would find it weird having one in my house alr...hah...ive grown out of those days man...but my aunt's incident made me ponder whether i should hire a maid in future when im married and have kids who are in their toddler stage and both my wife and myself would be busy working and no time to look after my kids....

i noe its a real long post...but thanks if u read all the way til here...=)